Sunday, May 31, 2009
Lost And Found
The re-organisation of my store room is almost complete. I now know where everything is – or will be – and it's all labeled: watercolour paper, complete and partially finished sketches, tools, boxes of archived work and files. Maybe more importantly, it's easy to put everything away. With more people working at my home and studio, it's essential that everything has its 'proper place'. I can't afford the time I used to waste searching for things.I've already found various things I thought I'd lost: a Polaroid camera, film, drawings from 10 years ago, a tripod, old exhibition invitations – the list continues to grow. I've also found a small number of incomplete drawings and watercolours. I left them unfinished because I was stuck or thought I'd ruined them. Once, I would have torn them up or thrown them away but thankfully, my boyfriend talked me out of it. I feel very differently now that I'm no longer so emotionally wrought by a sense of frustration or failure. I'm actually excited to see them again and I'm already thinking about revisiting each – maybe finishing the works and developing the original idea fully.I don't want to forget any of my artworks or ideas anymore. And I don't want to leave anything unfinished. It's vital – in every sense of the word – that I can refer to my past from time to time as well as find all the various tools I need.