Monday, May 23, 2011
The Final Curtain
After almost five years and 830 posts, this will be the last post to Self Vs. Self. I began writing this blog with the simple intent of documenting my daily life as an artist. It quickly evolved into something a little more complicated: a forensic examination of my mental illness, a workbook for creative ideas, an extended polemic (incited by the iniquities of the commercial gallery system), a sporadic dialogue with others interested in the creative process, and yes, a marketing and communications tool (one which effected a number of significant 'firsts' for an Australian artist). Inevitably, it has also documented a series of transformative events in my life, not just the exhibitions, media controversies and auctions that markedly increased my reputation (and prices for my work) but also emotional and financial crises, from prolonged bouts of depression, confinement in a mental hospital and bankruptcy to the sudden, agonising decline and death of my father. Never less than completely candid, even the darker intimacies of my uncertain sexual identity have been exposed.The trouble is, I feel that this blog now presses me too tightly to a past – and, as it were, a self – from which the time has come to move on.Of course, this is not the end of my writing online. Think of it as the end of a chapter, the conclusion of a first act. While I figure out what comes next, I will post daily to Facebook and Twitter, as well as, less often, to my archival web site. My monthly newsletter, Studio Notes, will also continue. However, this blog will soon be removed from public view.To everyone who has joined me for all or part of this unusual story, thank you. Even those of you who made plain their distaste for it – and me – have contributed to its unlikely achievements.